From Prayer to Death

by Leti

I used to pray for God to send a sign.
That if it wasn't meant to be, to just take you away from me
I wasn't quite strong enough to do it myself.
To stubborn for my own good and just too damn selfish

Never would I have thought my prayer would lead to death.
3 months later you took two shots to the chest.

I didn't pull the trigger I wasn't even there.
This was not my intentions when I prayed I SWEAR!!!!!!!
Someone was out to get you they laced your product.
Your mind took a toll and that's when things fucked up.

In the ER crazed and confused.
You pulled out your gun you weren't the same you.
An undercover approached from his seat.
You wouldn't obey.....two steps forward....to his gun you took a defeat.

GOD WHY DID YOU TAKE HIM YOU KNEW WHAT I MEANT!!
I didn't pray for death I prayed for a sign to be sent.
This was too extreme, it wasn't my intentions.
DID I TELL YOU I LOVED HIM? I KNOW THAT WAS MENTIONED.


Blaming myself I should have just walked.
Following my heart instead of my mind....IS THIS REALLY MY FAULT??


Never would I have thought my prayer would lead to death.
3 months later you took two shots to the chest.

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ToCute4U Jul 18, 2012 at 2:21pm
VERY POWERFUL BUT ALSO SADDEN BUT YOU KNOW IT WASNT YOUR FAULT OR NO ONE ELES'S IT WAS JUST HIS TYME TO GO BUT I HAVE BEEN IN YOUR SHOES BEFORE AND YES IT IS HARD TO LOSE SOMEOEN YOU TRULY LOVED BUT KNOWING THAT THEY ARE IN A BETTER PLACE IS LETTING YOU KNOW EVERYTHING WILL BE OK NEVER BLAME YOURSELF FOR A LOSS BUT JUST THANK GOD THE PERSON YOU LOVE DONT HAVE TO SUFFER NO MORE GREAT GREAT WRITE
 
MIKEYB28 Jul 7, 2012 at 6:39pm
The emotions run deep in this scribe just make me think about every time that i would wish somebody would be dead after they made me mad and now this got me wondering like what if they really did die I would have to live with that the rest of my life... But God knows our intentions even when we dont... And everything happens for a reason... We just got to search for the silver lining...
 
Leti Jul 7, 2012 at 5:10pm
it is def something i had to deal with. it ties into a few other poems i have listed, My Farewell, See Your Face, Dedication to Kenny.
 
foever poet Jul 7, 2012 at 7:18am
omg, this is powerfully sad! I guessing this is simply a brilliant pen inking creatively? hope so becuz the reality would clearly be a very painful thing to overcome. exceptional expressive inking....
 

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